Last night,
I found myself opening my phone again and again,
scrolling through information
without any real purpose.
Whenever I feel anxious or unsettled,
I have a habit of thinking,
“I need to do something.”
And then I start moving frantically.
But yesterday,
somewhere in the middle of all that,
I suddenly noticed something.
“Ah… I’m in my ‘being chased’ mode again.”
The moment I realized that,
my breathing became a little deeper.
And after that,
I quietly went to sleep.
Then morning came.
Instead of immediately opening my computer
to continue where I left off,
I chose something different first.
I chose something
that made me feel freedom and spaciousness.
At the center of my personal statement,
there is one sentence:
“Freedom and spaciousness are my source.”
When I have freedom and spaciousness,
I naturally become more honest with myself.
And when that honesty returns,
curiosity quietly begins to appear again.
Then,
almost naturally,
I start becoming interested in people,
in life,
in the world around me.
And somewhere beyond that flow,
I think there is the peaceful circle of connection
I truly want to create.
This morning,
I remembered that order again—
not in my mind,
but in my body.
When I act from anxiety,
everything becomes heavy.
When I act from freedom and spaciousness,
things begin to move naturally.
Such a simple truth.
And yet,
I want to keep rediscovering it
through my everyday life,
again and again,
slowly deepening my understanding of it.
Novem